This year, there's a lot of memories which is happy, sweet, crazy, sad, bitter and so on. And today I just can update my blog since a long time no update and sorry to keep you waiting. Hehehe :)
1st moment
This year I already loss two grandpa of both side of father and mother.
1st loss of my grandpa from my father side at early this year. Sorry I forgot the dates. Arwah's name Yaakob bin Md Don. That time I at my college and I got that news after isya' at sunday night. So my brother and I getting go home at that night to give a last respect for my grandpa. As I remember, that monday I got test but I'm just ignore it because I can take the test another day.
2nd moment
This raya, I loss my grandpa from my mother side. I got that news at early in the morning in 8.10am I think and I'm at malacca that time. I just got sleep at 4.30am because I really uncomfortable that night to sleep. So when I heard that news from my aunty, I feel is it I dreaming? Is it real? I feel very blur because I'm not enough sleep maybe. That's why i feel that way. So I woke up and wash my face and call my mom to make sure that news. And that news are true and real. So I very surprised because I just celebrate raya with him. I know he's not too well at raya. So we hope he will be fine day by day. But its opposite our thought. And we loss him.
I feel sad because my end semester break, I take care of him at hospital. I feel very sad of losing him and I still can't believe it that time. So I can't think well and I just want go back that time. I feel very sad because when I was kid, he's take care of my sibling with grandma. So I have a lot memories with him. I always remembered when I was kid that I always follow him send 'kuih' at stall with his vespa bike and I stand at in front of him which there's a space to stand like this picture and its actually same color and type.
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| In memories |
Then my brother took me and heading to my grandpa's house. When we arrived at hometown, they already took him to cemetery and already buried him. And I couldn't to see his face for a last time. I just can do a part of buried him. That's make me really sad. You can see I'm like a happy go lucky person but it doesn't suit me. I can easily sad and cry.
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| May Allah Blessed Him |
After the funeral ceremony, I just can stand there and watch the grave and feel very can't believe it. All I do is keep believe he's not with us anymore. Just praying for him. May Allah Blessed Us. Al-Fatihah.
"Yang pergi tetap pergi" that sentence that I keep in my mind. I want take care all the people that I love. If I don't take care them, who else want take care? Its our responsible to take care them and don't regret when they are gone. Keep it in mind.
